Should I Stay Or Should I Go?

Should I continue on with Mark or should leave quizzing behind me?

The latter seems more predominate as of late.

Ha, it's funny, the main reason that I used to want to quit has now actually become one of the more enjoyable aspects of quiz. Him and I had our differences and our stubborn opinions, but we've seemed to somewhat conquer those barriers and taken a higher road.

So why do I want to leave?

Simple. I just don't fit in. Trebonte continues to tell me "We like you." "You're one of us." But truth be told, no I'm not.

I still constantly feel out of place, mainly because of the situations and interactions I have with the people.

Like Thursday, I saw World Quiz as a more fun event, whereas some were taking the entire experience wwwaaayyy too seriously, and it ended with this:

Her: 'Rawr rawr rawr. I should have gotten that right. rawr rawr rawr.'
Me: 'You got it wrong. Just sit down.'
Her: 'No, I was right.'
Me: 'Appartently you were wrong.'
Her: 'I did better than you.'

Now, I don't care, because, as I said, it was just for fun, but her comment was uncalled for. It was just one of example of a lack of friendship that 2 years of quizzing has produced.

Another peeve, Regionals. I understand everyone will think I am being immature about it, seeing as the coach I talked to told me he didn't understand why I was upset, but I don't care, what happened was just rude.

When our team found out it would be able to attend Regionals, I was -the- first to show excitement to Evan about going. I pretty much convinced him, seeing as he told me he didn't think our team would win anything, so it wasn't worth going. But I convinced him we should go, because it would be a fun experience. I was -extremely- excited about going. I was truly looking forward to it. I told Evan I would be an official and do my part to help out. He said I could come too.

Ha, until other 'coaches' decided they wanted to tag along, after my initial excitement was announced. So what happened?

I get an email from the head coach telling me I was uninvited to Regionals. Yep.


"I appreciate your offer to go and help with Spokane/Regionals but I do have enough Officials and Anna's mom is attending as a female chaperon.....Sorry for the un-invitation to go."

Oh nice, at least he said sorry! Well, he shouldn't have picked 'coaches' who only want to go to 'hang out' over a quizzer who earned her way by practicing and placing at districts.

So another example of where I stand with all the TBQ peoples. I must be shorter than I thought, because I'm often overlooked.



Are those the only experiences that were negative for me? Ha, no.


Now, I know that to my fellow team mates, I'm spoiled, superficial, wasteful, and materialistic. They can't deny it, for they have said it to my face multiple times.

So, as a part of my spoiled, superficial, wasteful, and materialistic upbringing, a large importance was placed on birthdays, for it was a day to show one person how much you cared for them and how much you loved them. Presents were a big part, but bigger than that was just showing kindness towards that person and reminding them that they are special to you.

So, when I went to quiz a few days after my birthday, I expected maybe a card, or maybe just a hug or something. What did I get? I was constantly told I need to calmed down and focus, I was called a 'baby' by one of the coaches, followed by a falling out with that same coach. So my birthday with TBQ sucked.

Well, I figured 'Well, they just celebrate differently than my family does. It's just them.'

Until another group of girls had their sixteenth birthday party at regionals where they were greeted with a disco ball and a party with streamers and tasty treats, followed by many great memories that seem to love to talking about when I'm around. I'm not surprised though, seeing as who they are.

Ha, I know everyone is thinking. 'Wow, Ana is really childish and immature.'

I don't really care, and you telling me so isn't going to effect me in anyway. I am the way I am.

Thus the reason I don't mesh with TBQ.

Thus the end of my journey with them that only ended with bruises and tears. Oh well, I did have fun with some people. But the main person has also ended his year, so I don't have anything keeping me.

This is all dramatic teenage BS.