Monday, December 31, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Liberalism vs. Conservatism
Trace Adkins, country singer and author of the book "A Personal Stand," made the comment: "Liberalism has less morals, but is more civil, and Conservatism has more morals, but is less civil." Later going on to state that he did not see one better than another.
This left me to ponder: Which of the two do I truly see as the lesser evil?
I stand by many Conservative beliefs, such as the ban on gay marriage, pro-life, and other topics such as immigration and affirmative action. Thus, I label myself as a "Classic Conservative" or traditional. But still, what do I find as the greater importance. Having strong morals, but not caring much for the rest of the community, or having a lack of morals, but with a strong look on said community?
Growing up in liberal home such as mine, I grew up with a strong... attraction, I should say to the Clinton administration. (I was born shortly before his term.) But as my sister grew up, she realized she didn't quite see eye to eye with our parents when it came to politics. Tasha registered as Republican. Her actions lead to my parents realizing, they too, as they aged, agreed more with conservative stances.
Now I go through my teen years in a very conservative family. Being as my family shaped and molded my views today (Adding to my filters of Religion, Education, etc.) But now I find myself having to decide whether or not I actually agree with them.
This year in school, I basically have an entire day devoted to politic discussions and learnings. Mr. Fountain does a phenomenal job of conveying both sides of the political spectrum, and doing it very eloquently. I've had to spend much time drawing a line in the sand of what mattered to me and what convictions lead me to believe what. I did a paper earlier about my stance on Genetic Engineering and whether or not the government should place greater restrictions on it. I also had to give my opinion on immigration and God in the classroom. This has been so great for me to actually spend time, not only researching what other people believe and say on such topics, but spending time in personal meditation. I had to put in front of me what mattered and what I saw as important to me.
Now, back to my original topic. Liberalism vs. Conservatism. Which one should actually be seen as the "right" choice.
Liberal: Favorable to progress or reform, as in political or religious affairs.
Conservative: Disposed to preserve existing conditions, institutions, etc., or to restore traditional ones, and to limit change.
When going by these definitions, I strongly agree with the latter. I love ways of old. Traditional values just seemed to bring about a more desirable time in our past. Strong morals, and good sense of right from wrong. A neighbor would help their neighbor. Christian values were instilled in children, who later grew up to lead strong Christian families. A beautiful thing. Something I am definitely for.
So I think the idea of Conservatism not being civil is something that has come up as of recently. The past century or so. Could it be all the technology the human race invented in this time period? Or maybe just a simple change of culture brought upon by the differences in parenting skills and what have you? Either way, it's extremely evident that today's culture has taken a steep decline as far as morals go. A man can go on the Internet and in 3 clicks or less can open a world of pornography. Bombarded with disgusting and filthy images of naked women, none of which is the beautiful and cherished body of his wife. A woman now has the right to murder her child just because she hasn't physically seen it yet. Having sex out of wedlock is now seen tolerable. I have known people who even in 5 grade (being the age of 10 and 11) and are having sex. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying sex is a horrible thing. I'm not saying that all. I look forward to the day I will be able to share that with the man of dreams. That man being my husband.
Okay, so that went more off into the world of morals, and not civics. But I believe the lack of morals has lead to the degrade of civility. We no longer hold family values as important. Half the population of America is divorced. 4 out of 10 children are born out of wedlock. 40% of our children don't have committed parents. In 2002 1.29 million abortions took place in America alone. Now, with children growing up in broken homes, where parents don't love each other, a child's life is not seen as a precious gift, and mother and/or father bring home a new lover every night, why would they honestly care for the well being of everyone else, when their own lives are failing miserably? Children are growing up in a world with a "Depend on everyone else, only to help yourself" type of mentality.
So, as of now, I will still consider myself the tradition conservative. Happy to be. Because I hold morals strong in my heart. But, I also try to help the world around me. For that's what God has made me to do. I plan on raising a family with a husband, in a commited and over the top loving family. I plan on having children who will carry on with my values and views, so that they may lead a world that God has planned.
This left me to ponder: Which of the two do I truly see as the lesser evil?
I stand by many Conservative beliefs, such as the ban on gay marriage, pro-life, and other topics such as immigration and affirmative action. Thus, I label myself as a "Classic Conservative" or traditional. But still, what do I find as the greater importance. Having strong morals, but not caring much for the rest of the community, or having a lack of morals, but with a strong look on said community?
Growing up in liberal home such as mine, I grew up with a strong... attraction, I should say to the Clinton administration. (I was born shortly before his term.) But as my sister grew up, she realized she didn't quite see eye to eye with our parents when it came to politics. Tasha registered as Republican. Her actions lead to my parents realizing, they too, as they aged, agreed more with conservative stances.
Now I go through my teen years in a very conservative family. Being as my family shaped and molded my views today (Adding to my filters of Religion, Education, etc.) But now I find myself having to decide whether or not I actually agree with them.
This year in school, I basically have an entire day devoted to politic discussions and learnings. Mr. Fountain does a phenomenal job of conveying both sides of the political spectrum, and doing it very eloquently. I've had to spend much time drawing a line in the sand of what mattered to me and what convictions lead me to believe what. I did a paper earlier about my stance on Genetic Engineering and whether or not the government should place greater restrictions on it. I also had to give my opinion on immigration and God in the classroom. This has been so great for me to actually spend time, not only researching what other people believe and say on such topics, but spending time in personal meditation. I had to put in front of me what mattered and what I saw as important to me.
Now, back to my original topic. Liberalism vs. Conservatism. Which one should actually be seen as the "right" choice.
Liberal: Favorable to progress or reform, as in political or religious affairs.
Conservative: Disposed to preserve existing conditions, institutions, etc., or to restore traditional ones, and to limit change.
When going by these definitions, I strongly agree with the latter. I love ways of old. Traditional values just seemed to bring about a more desirable time in our past. Strong morals, and good sense of right from wrong. A neighbor would help their neighbor. Christian values were instilled in children, who later grew up to lead strong Christian families. A beautiful thing. Something I am definitely for.
So I think the idea of Conservatism not being civil is something that has come up as of recently. The past century or so. Could it be all the technology the human race invented in this time period? Or maybe just a simple change of culture brought upon by the differences in parenting skills and what have you? Either way, it's extremely evident that today's culture has taken a steep decline as far as morals go. A man can go on the Internet and in 3 clicks or less can open a world of pornography. Bombarded with disgusting and filthy images of naked women, none of which is the beautiful and cherished body of his wife. A woman now has the right to murder her child just because she hasn't physically seen it yet. Having sex out of wedlock is now seen tolerable. I have known people who even in 5 grade (being the age of 10 and 11) and are having sex. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying sex is a horrible thing. I'm not saying that all. I look forward to the day I will be able to share that with the man of dreams. That man being my husband.
Okay, so that went more off into the world of morals, and not civics. But I believe the lack of morals has lead to the degrade of civility. We no longer hold family values as important. Half the population of America is divorced. 4 out of 10 children are born out of wedlock. 40% of our children don't have committed parents. In 2002 1.29 million abortions took place in America alone. Now, with children growing up in broken homes, where parents don't love each other, a child's life is not seen as a precious gift, and mother and/or father bring home a new lover every night, why would they honestly care for the well being of everyone else, when their own lives are failing miserably? Children are growing up in a world with a "Depend on everyone else, only to help yourself" type of mentality.
So, as of now, I will still consider myself the tradition conservative. Happy to be. Because I hold morals strong in my heart. But, I also try to help the world around me. For that's what God has made me to do. I plan on raising a family with a husband, in a commited and over the top loving family. I plan on having children who will carry on with my values and views, so that they may lead a world that God has planned.
Monday, December 24, 2007
Me. But I'm not too sure about the Athletic part... And it doesn't look very nice, but you can tell what I look for or who I am compatible with.
Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions
| Your dating personality profile: Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you. Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance. | Your date match profile: Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life. Traditional - You need someone who is a bit old-fashioned. A person with traditional values and beliefs will perfectly compliment your lifestyle. Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about. |
Your Top Ten Traits 1. Religious 2. Athletic 3. Stylish 4. Conservative 5. Intellectual 6. Traditional 7. Sensual 8. Wealthy/Ambitious 9. Adventurous 10. Romantic | Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Religious 2. Traditional 3. Shy 4. Athletic 5. Conservative 6. Stylish 7. Romantic 8. Funny 9. Adventurous 10. Wealthy/Ambitious |
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Sunday, December 23, 2007
It's late and I too much time on my hands.
| Your Love Is Represented By a Red Rose |
 You love passionately and fully, without any reservations. And while romantic love comes easily for you, you also love many people platonically. You are a true romantic, and you always can see the best in people. |
| You Are a Centaur |
 In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person. However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways. You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order. You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily. |
| Your Inner Retro Girl Is |
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| What People Think of Your Mouth |
 People see you both as reserved and sweet. You tend to be very sensitive and detail oriented. The smallest things can please or annoy you. You tend to be internally moody. Perceptive and intuitive, you understand people quickly - though you usually won't tell them. |
| Your Dosha is Pitta |
 You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor. You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader. Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways. But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical. With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you In love: You are picky but passionate To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight. |
| You Are a Feminine Beauty! |
 You make any guy feel like a man, simply by standing next to him You have a classic womanly appeal - and you've got a look for every occasion This doesn't mean that you can't kick back in (designer) jeans and sneakers You just prefer to be girly and sweet as often as possible |
Saturday, December 22, 2007
A Night With My Brother
We basically spent two hours watching senseless online videos. Her are some of the ones we liked best. The majority of them were old favorites, so here ya go!
I want this husband!
"Give me a Christian, I'm insistin'. I'll greet her with some holy kissin'"
Mensroom Etiquette.
This is Why I was never allowed to have Kool-Aid as a child.
^^ some mild language, but it's not bad.
I want this husband!
"Give me a Christian, I'm insistin'. I'll greet her with some holy kissin'"
Mensroom Etiquette.
This is Why I was never allowed to have Kool-Aid as a child.
^^ some mild language, but it's not bad.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
I Taught My Nephew The Algorithm March!!
It's an obsession of mine, now I'm passing it on to the next generation. I'm a good leader.
Plus, here are a couple of videos from the TBQ Christmas party!
And another one:
Plus, here are a couple of videos from the TBQ Christmas party!
And another one:
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
It's Rather Annoying.
How people can't seem to do anything themselves. How people expect you to do everything for them, while they laze around like inconsiderate jerks.
You know what I mean: They drop a pencil that is a foot away from them, but ask you to walk 4 feet away and pick it up. Or while completing a project, they ask you to do all the typing, take the project home, spend your free time hours stressing yourself trying to finish every bit and piece, while they have a good time. Then, when you turn everything in, they get credit for something they had no part of.
Or they have you do their duties!!! Not even duties, but tasks. Selfish tasks.
There is a girl who has lunch with us, who, almost every lunch, asks a friend of mine to stand in the line and buy her food, without any type of payment in return. Just so she can sit on the freaking bench flirting every boy who stops by. I just can't understand that... how can one person be so selfish and lazy. Then again, Christ died for me, and I still do things that only promote myself, and tend to put off the tasks God has put before me.
I guess, I still have some growing up to do. But for right now, this is extremely annoying.
Ugh.
You know what I mean: They drop a pencil that is a foot away from them, but ask you to walk 4 feet away and pick it up. Or while completing a project, they ask you to do all the typing, take the project home, spend your free time hours stressing yourself trying to finish every bit and piece, while they have a good time. Then, when you turn everything in, they get credit for something they had no part of.
Or they have you do their duties!!! Not even duties, but tasks. Selfish tasks.
There is a girl who has lunch with us, who, almost every lunch, asks a friend of mine to stand in the line and buy her food, without any type of payment in return. Just so she can sit on the freaking bench flirting every boy who stops by. I just can't understand that... how can one person be so selfish and lazy. Then again, Christ died for me, and I still do things that only promote myself, and tend to put off the tasks God has put before me.
I guess, I still have some growing up to do. But for right now, this is extremely annoying.
Ugh.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Today, while at the Lee's family Christmas party (Actually, it's the Wissbrod's, but we went with the Lee's) Rich informed me I have feminine pecks. Hahahahaaha.
The reaction from Brandon was pretty much awesome aswell.
Hahahaha.
Aaron: " I was beat by a girl."
Ana: "Hey! We already went through this. I'm not a woman."
Aaron: "Oh, that's right. You're half man, half woman."
Rich: "What part of you is man?"
Ana: "All of me."
Rich: "Your pecks look pretty feminine to me."
Hahahahaha, oh I love it.
The reaction from Brandon was pretty much awesome aswell.
Hahahaha.
Aaron: " I was beat by a girl."
Ana: "Hey! We already went through this. I'm not a woman."
Aaron: "Oh, that's right. You're half man, half woman."
Rich: "What part of you is man?"
Ana: "All of me."
Rich: "Your pecks look pretty feminine to me."
Hahahahaha, oh I love it.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
I Hate When People Ignore You
Don't you?
I've been planning a Christmas Party for TBQ for some time now. Part of the festivities were going to include a gift exchange. Now, when I passed out invites last Thursday. a certain parent of mine was being a pain in the butt, so I had to hurry, resulting in no one had a chance to choose their recipient. I didn't want to have them choose on Sunday because of absence of the majority of the team. So, I went home and randomly drew names for everyone. Once I had everything settled, I contacted my head coach to retrieve everyone's official emails.
That was Monday night. Today is Wednesday night. Still no response. Now is too late for people to buy thoughtful gifts, so I'm throwing the entire idea out. Which is so lame because that's what I was looking forward to most. It's probably for the best, seeing as nobody has even taken this party seriously.
I know he's not intentionally ignoring me, but never the less...
But I take full responsibility, because I should have gotten the info to everyone much sooner.
Either way, things suck.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
The Algorithm March
So, my little niece was crying and was very upset. Walking her, bouncing her, and giving her a suckie didn't help. BUT, I started to humm the tune to the Algorithm March, and it totally calmed her down. So, I put words to it and did some rendition of the dance. Why am I so cool?
Matt's mom is furry AND scaley.
We were discussing... animals. I mention that Matt "liked" all animals. Stating, "Al animals, furry and scaley... like your mom!"
I was so proud.
I was so proud.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
A Change of Heart
I grew tired of the old layout, seeing as it was somewhat of an eye sore. I really like this one, though.
Three Names You Go By: Ana, Anastazja, Anja (Mainly by my daddy)
Three Screennames You Have: FiveIronAna, Creepyskakid, and that's it.
Three Things You Like About Yourself: Ability to accept anyone, understanding, spontaneity.
Three Things You Dislike About Yourself: Lack of talent, procrastination, fear of change.
Three Parts of Your Heritage: Polish, Scottist, Austrian.
Three Things That Scare You: Getting in trouble, failing, embarassment.
Three of Your Everyday Essentials: Make-up, Wallet, Compy.
Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now: Hot pink and orange shorts, a red shirt, funky necklace.
Three of Your Favorite Bands/Artists (at the moment): Five Iron Frenzy, Emery, Cake.
Three of Your Favorite Songs at Present: Plan B (Five Iron Frenzy), Only One (Plain White T's), Godspeed (Anberlin)
Three New Things You Want to Try in the Next 12 Months: I will try to grow Spiritually, Mentally, and, god permiting, physically.
Three Things You Want in a Relationship (love is a given): Kindness and gentlness of heart, Compassion and understanding, a man who loves family and with a deep relationship in Jesus Christ.
Two Truths and a Lie: I play computer games like a geek, I hate being naked, I love to stab myself.
Three Physical Things About the Opposite Sex: That Appeal to You: Eyes, Smile, Hands (Don't ask me why...)
Three Things You Just Can’t Do: Murder, Eat Mayo, Denounce Jesus Christ as my savior and Lord.
Three of Your Favorite Hobbies: Yelling, History, Tennis.
Three Things You Want to do Really Badly Right Now: Sleep, brush my teeth, get a massage.
Three Careers You’re Considering: Architecture, Family Life counseling, and teaching.
Three Kids’ Names:
For Girls: Mary(ray, rei, rey, etc. [Like Marirei, Mariray, or Marirey. It's weird, you can get over it.), Emma, Stephanie.
For Boys: Austin, Aaron, Sean.
Three Screennames You Have: FiveIronAna, Creepyskakid, and that's it.
Three Things You Like About Yourself: Ability to accept anyone, understanding, spontaneity.
Three Things You Dislike About Yourself: Lack of talent, procrastination, fear of change.
Three Parts of Your Heritage: Polish, Scottist, Austrian.
Three Things That Scare You: Getting in trouble, failing, embarassment.
Three of Your Everyday Essentials: Make-up, Wallet, Compy.
Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now: Hot pink and orange shorts, a red shirt, funky necklace.
Three of Your Favorite Bands/Artists (at the moment): Five Iron Frenzy, Emery, Cake.
Three of Your Favorite Songs at Present: Plan B (Five Iron Frenzy), Only One (Plain White T's), Godspeed (Anberlin)
Three New Things You Want to Try in the Next 12 Months: I will try to grow Spiritually, Mentally, and, god permiting, physically.
Three Things You Want in a Relationship (love is a given): Kindness and gentlness of heart, Compassion and understanding, a man who loves family and with a deep relationship in Jesus Christ.
Two Truths and a Lie: I play computer games like a geek, I hate being naked, I love to stab myself.
Three Physical Things About the Opposite Sex: That Appeal to You: Eyes, Smile, Hands (Don't ask me why...)
Three Things You Just Can’t Do: Murder, Eat Mayo, Denounce Jesus Christ as my savior and Lord.
Three of Your Favorite Hobbies: Yelling, History, Tennis.
Three Things You Want to do Really Badly Right Now: Sleep, brush my teeth, get a massage.
Three Careers You’re Considering: Architecture, Family Life counseling, and teaching.
Three Kids’ Names:
For Girls: Mary(ray, rei, rey, etc. [Like Marirei, Mariray, or Marirey. It's weird, you can get over it.), Emma, Stephanie.
For Boys: Austin, Aaron, Sean.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Who is the Woman I am Meant to Be?
I'm been contemplating this for quite some time now, but I still am struggling with the topic. God created me for a purpose. He made me a woman for some reason. My DNA is not as random as science would like us to think.
"1Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, 2when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. 3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. 5For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands, 6like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.
7Husbands, in the same way be considerate as you live with your wives, and treat them with respect as the weaker partner and as heirs with you of the gracious gift of life, so that nothing will hinder your prayers." - 1 Peter 3:1-7
According to the Bible, I should be submissive, quiet, and gentle. I am beautiful because of my purity and reverence. My relationship and hope in God. I am not beautiful for the way I wear my hair, or the clothes I picked out for the day. The jewelry I put around my neck and on my wrist does not make me desirable. A woman should show God through her acts and behavior, that if her husband, her one in flesh, should stumble and begin to doubt, he may look at her and realize where God is. I am a daughter of Sarah, so I should acquire the attributes of her.
I love this passage of scripture. It shows how a wife should truly act. Really, how all women, single or married, should act.
What is also great, is that it gives men a glimpse of what their future wives should be like. A man should constantly be searching for this woman. Not giving up for the sake of just being married and starting a family. A man's wife should be what God intended, not just what society says a woman should be. I strive to be this woman, so that I would be a prize, and not a settlement. Something that should be fought for and won, and not just what is cheap and easy to get at.
I'm so excited to see how God will change me. What things and/or people He'll put into my life to help me grow into this woman. I know there are people already here today that have launched me far into the next step. God is just so awesome. He blesses me so much, and I completely don't deserve it. How wonderful is that?
"1Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, 2when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. 3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. 5For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands, 6like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.
7Husbands, in the same way be considerate as you live with your wives, and treat them with respect as the weaker partner and as heirs with you of the gracious gift of life, so that nothing will hinder your prayers." - 1 Peter 3:1-7
According to the Bible, I should be submissive, quiet, and gentle. I am beautiful because of my purity and reverence. My relationship and hope in God. I am not beautiful for the way I wear my hair, or the clothes I picked out for the day. The jewelry I put around my neck and on my wrist does not make me desirable. A woman should show God through her acts and behavior, that if her husband, her one in flesh, should stumble and begin to doubt, he may look at her and realize where God is. I am a daughter of Sarah, so I should acquire the attributes of her.
I love this passage of scripture. It shows how a wife should truly act. Really, how all women, single or married, should act.
What is also great, is that it gives men a glimpse of what their future wives should be like. A man should constantly be searching for this woman. Not giving up for the sake of just being married and starting a family. A man's wife should be what God intended, not just what society says a woman should be. I strive to be this woman, so that I would be a prize, and not a settlement. Something that should be fought for and won, and not just what is cheap and easy to get at.
I'm so excited to see how God will change me. What things and/or people He'll put into my life to help me grow into this woman. I know there are people already here today that have launched me far into the next step. God is just so awesome. He blesses me so much, and I completely don't deserve it. How wonderful is that?
Friday, December 7, 2007
Muahahaaha. Myspace's "Heros" feature has now finally been worth something.
Here is what a friend of mine wrote about me:
"Anastazja Bury her middle name is too hard to spell lol but she is an amzing spunky girl!!!! she always is positive no matter what her situation is. when i dissappoint her she lets me know when i have done somthing wrong so i can realize never to do it again. She says the funniest things....and sometimes just breaks down and dances in the middle of conversation!! she cracks me up... she also has an amzing memory(this girl knows her Bible!!! lol...she also secretly wants the guy from the Soup lol and i think she is a ninja though she may deny it lol....this is one amazing girl!!"
Too bad my Bible memorization has taken a real downfall... oh well, at least I'm spunky!
Here is what a friend of mine wrote about me:
"Anastazja Bury her middle name is too hard to spell lol but she is an amzing spunky girl!!!! she always is positive no matter what her situation is. when i dissappoint her she lets me know when i have done somthing wrong so i can realize never to do it again. She says the funniest things....and sometimes just breaks down and dances in the middle of conversation!! she cracks me up... she also has an amzing memory(this girl knows her Bible!!! lol...she also secretly wants the guy from the Soup lol and i think she is a ninja though she may deny it lol....this is one amazing girl!!"
Too bad my Bible memorization has taken a real downfall... oh well, at least I'm spunky!
A Birth Announcement
Well, technically I was told this on Wednesday, but I heard from the the mommy to be, today. This girl in my PE class told everyone she is pregnant. She's 16 years old. Wow, to be pregnant so young. To take on such a responsibility as another human's life when you can barely drive a car on a main road.
She's only a month along and, luckily, is planning to keep her child. Her boyfriend is 19, and is now buying a home for them to live in (An actual home, not an apartment) that is close to both of their families. She will be legally emancipated within the coming weeks. Man, I don't have a clean pair of pants and I automatically think my life is over (Okay, maybe I'm not that dramatic) but to think everyday that whatever I eat, drink, or breathe in will some how affect a child. Helpless and lame. Pure and defenseless. That I would be in charge of it. All I can think to do is pray and pray some more for her. Pray that her child will be healthy, seeing as my friend has a bit of a smoking and drinking problem. She is completely willing to quit both, but you just never know. She has no money, so being able to afford a baby seems almost impossible.
She's very excited, though! She's known for 5 days and is completely frazzled with excitement.
11 or 12 years ago, my cousin became pregnant while living under our roof. She was 17 years old. It was kept a secret from my father for a short while, for fear that he would not be understanding and compassionate. But, my mom took the courage to tell him a baby was on the way. Surprisingly, my dad just said "A baby is a gift and is something that we should celebrate. They can be married." Before my cousin even started to show, she was married and lived in an apartment. All by 17, though. I will be 17 in 9 1/2 months. To have a baby would be terrifying.
I definitely want to have children, but not until I'm married and in a position to support myself and a baby. ( And multiple babies. )
She's only a month along and, luckily, is planning to keep her child. Her boyfriend is 19, and is now buying a home for them to live in (An actual home, not an apartment) that is close to both of their families. She will be legally emancipated within the coming weeks. Man, I don't have a clean pair of pants and I automatically think my life is over (Okay, maybe I'm not that dramatic) but to think everyday that whatever I eat, drink, or breathe in will some how affect a child. Helpless and lame. Pure and defenseless. That I would be in charge of it. All I can think to do is pray and pray some more for her. Pray that her child will be healthy, seeing as my friend has a bit of a smoking and drinking problem. She is completely willing to quit both, but you just never know. She has no money, so being able to afford a baby seems almost impossible.
She's very excited, though! She's known for 5 days and is completely frazzled with excitement.
11 or 12 years ago, my cousin became pregnant while living under our roof. She was 17 years old. It was kept a secret from my father for a short while, for fear that he would not be understanding and compassionate. But, my mom took the courage to tell him a baby was on the way. Surprisingly, my dad just said "A baby is a gift and is something that we should celebrate. They can be married." Before my cousin even started to show, she was married and lived in an apartment. All by 17, though. I will be 17 in 9 1/2 months. To have a baby would be terrifying.
I definitely want to have children, but not until I'm married and in a position to support myself and a baby. ( And multiple babies. )
Monday, December 3, 2007
A very hard decision must be made. I don't know if I can possibly do it myself. I predict I shall be spending my days deep in my Bible and in prayer. Hoping for God's guidance in everything I do. The idea of leaving it all behind and getting a fresh start for the good of my future is a little more than terrifying, to say the least.
Lord help me.
Lord help me.
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